The Hate Within

This isn't love, nor a lust of any kind.
It is a pain you have caused, deep within.
Bringing about a hurt, unlike any other,
And having it face me with no where to turn.
A heart I thought was healed enough to start again,
Was slowly ripped from my chest and smashed.
No regard to what the outcome would be,
You walked away, and fucking left me.
Selfishly caring only for yourself,
You showed your true colors, as you walked away.
I should still care, if it was love at all,
But I see your face and I just get mad.
Tears don't run any more,
And I fear they never will again.
I can't seem to trust another,
Although I dearly want to.
How you did me in left no room for another.
You took my heart and filled it with sand.
No empty whole to fill with another,
But rather a weight upon my chest.
Can't seem to move past us,
The us I thought was there but was not.
How I thought it would be you and I,
And I was pleased with that idea.
Now I know, lies are as common as the air we breath,
And now I know the lies you spoke were so real.
You had be believing in what you said,
When you knew all along it wasn't.
So the feelings I have from with in my soul,
Is a small shadow of what was there.
It is now consumed with darkness,
And it is becoming the Hate Within.