Wishfull Thinking...

I cannot help but wonder,
 what it was all for.
Could it be you really cared,
 or was being with me a chore.
Did I not treat you right,
 making you smile.
Could you not tell my love,
 and how I went the extra mile?
I thought I was the best for you,
 and thought we'd last forever,
Now I'm sitting here alone,
 knowing the next time will be never.
Bitter I am becoming,
 and cynical about it all.
Wondering if it could actually ever be true,
 that one day again I'll fall.
I always thought I'd have someone,
meant for only me.
Now I think that perhaps,
 it was all a lie...maybe

I cannot Lie

It won't change, regardless of my actions...
I can't change the way I am.
I can hide my emotions, pretend they aren't there
But I cannot get rid of them.
I care too much, I care for the wrong ones.
I give my heart in whole, only to have it returned in pieces.
It's what I expect, a life of doubt and lies.
I give my all, thinking I will get the same.
I have yet, to ever get in return,
even half of what I have given.
I can love and love,
and never run out,
But I cannot lie any more.
My heart is worn on my sleeve,
as though I am not meant to keep it.